Tired


im tired of being tired
i want it all to end
see if the other side is real
check what it’s like out there

forget all the worries
forget all the fears
forget everything i’ve ever known
forget who i ever was

i stopped wanting to be happy
stopped longing for things i know will never be
i started waiting for my time
waiting for that time

Written on a whim last night and posted on Facebook. I am tired.

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Banners from A Few Months Ago

I went to One K Concert early in March of 2017. As how any K-Pop concert is, banners are always given out to a certain number of attendees (until all the stocks are out).

I was not able to put them on my One K post but I wanted to share the banners I was given that day. I also included the light stick they gave out inside the venue itself.

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Oh, and the B.A.P PH staff I ordered my Who’s X shirt gave out a whistle, too. IMG_9343

A Hello from Class

I am currently in my CCNA class, waiting for dismissal.

We finished the activity early and have time to rest.

The past few weeks have been okay. I am tired, as usual, but still okay.

I will be blogging again once I get home. My Super Pop Con blog is long overdue.

While writing this, we were given another laboratory activity so I have to go.

Again, Hello. I hope you guys are having a great day!

Bye~

Global Peace Concert One K in Manila 2017

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Photo taken from www.philippineconcerts.com

One K Global Peace Concert in Manila was announced a few months before the year 2016 ended. It was supposed to be attended by EXO and BTS, as rumors went out the same time. It was confirmed by January 2017, having All Access Productions as one of its producers.

All Access Productions is a company who had brought us K-Pop shows and concerts including Dream K-Pop Fantasy Concerts 1 and 2 and MBC Show Champion in Manila 2016.

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One K Global Peace Concert in Manila was held on 2nd of March, 2017. It was a peace concert for the unification of the only divided country in the world: Korea. Philippines was its first stop for the year of 2017.

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The show started at 8:25PM with a formal event, talking about the significance of bringing together the nation of Korea, its dreams and hopes for its future. The master of ceremony was Sam Oh, a Philippine-based Korean actress. The formal event ended with a group of people holding dove balloons (which, for me, as a person with a fear of balloons, was surprisingly cute).

The concert then started with B.A.P. I remember seeing them for the first time in 2014 and I cried a bucketful of tears during their performance. I can’t remember if I cried this time. I was happy with being able to see them again! B.A.P. performed their latest song Skydive. They also performed One Shot, which made my concert buddy for the day very happy. Sadly, I wasn’t able to use the whistle they gave out earlier. The last they performed was No Mercy. People singing, more like shouting, “No! No! No! No Mercy” will always be one of my favorite parts of any event B.A.P. will be on. Daehyun had a few minutes alone, dancing on the main stage near a camera. I almost made him my bias. I love everyone, though.

After their performance, Seolhyun and Minho came out. They were the emcees for the rest of the show. It was cute, as what they were saying were already flashed on the screens with subtitles (a very nice gesture from the producers).

Having been enrolled to a Korean class, I tried my hardest to translate a few of what the people have been saying.

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B1A4 was next, and, as someone who isn’t a fan, I was converted. All five members were nice. I felt bad for not knowing everyone except Baro and Gongchan. They performed the songs Beautiful Target, Baby Goodnight, and what became my favorite that night, What’s Happening. During the ment, Baro spoke in English and I fell more for him. I needed to find out more about them after that night. Baro’s voice, I would love to hear that from day to night.

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Emcees Seolhyun and Minho came out again and talked about how popular Korean Dramas are in the Philippines. I can’t remember why but I wrote on my note ‘kpop na drama’. It might have been the Filipina emcee who kept on shouting on the microphone. She was funny.

The show went on with KDrama special stages. Forgive for not knowing the songs, I am not a fan of Korean Drama. Choa of AOA sang a song from the Descendants of the Sun while Sandeul of B1A4 sang the theme song from Moonlight Drawn by Clouds. The last song was Almost Paradise, something I and a lot of Filipinos are very familiar with. It was the theme song from Boys Over Flowers. B.A.P.’s Daehyun and Youngjae (/keyboard smashing bec otp) sang it for the night.

AOA came out and performed Excuse Me (the song of the year 2017). I might have also cried. I am not very sure. They performed Heart Attack then had their ment. During the ment, I had a mini heart-attack as Jimin slipped because of a slogan cardboard thrown on stage. Thankfully, one of her members caught her. Every one of the members were beautiful. AOA performed Mini Skirt last. I was thankful to have been able to see Jimin. Finally. Hearing Choa’s voice was a blessing, too.

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BTOB, the main reason why I went to the show, were next in the line up. They performed their latest song, I’ll Be Your Man. Along with it, they performed Beep Beep and probably the song they’ll always perform in joint concerts, Wow. I am sure I cried that time. Everyone were preparing for their come back and Ilhoon had his hair dyed red. I was shook (lol). During their ment, everyone tried to speak in English. I forgot who my bias was. I love all of them.

One of the most unforgettable moments during the night was that when Sungjae introduced himself, the whole venue went wild, even Eunkwang who was beside him looked surprised. Sungjae spoke in Cebuano, too.

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CNBlue went next and they started with their song Can’t Stop, one of my favorites. Yonghwa’s smile was exceptional and I think everyone would agree that he was the crowd favorite of the night. He was a sweetheart. They also performed Cinderella and You’re So Fine. In-between their performances, Yonghwa said ‘Manila, you’re so sweet’ and ‘You’re the best, Manila. I love you.’ He also said that he will come back. But all I really want to say is that he took my heart.

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A performance of ‘Anak’ with BTOB Eunkwang and Hyunsik together with Filipino actor Cesar Montano had shocked the audience and filled the venue with screams and ‘wow’s. Hyejeong came out next, but I was not able to recognize the song she sang. Her voice was amazing, though.

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Performing the song View, SHINee came out. FINALLY. I wanted to see them perform at least once in my life (although I’m hoping for more). There were amazing, more than how I saw them in fantaken and music show performances. After View was An Encore, then 1 of 1. The last is one of my favorite SHINee songs ever: Everybody. I did tear up a bit, SHINee was one of the few first groups I’ve gotten to know during my time as a newbie fan. They are important to me. SHINee recognized their group of fans by the right and I was happy for them.

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The final performer of the night was PSY and, although I wasn’t exactly a big fan, I knew 4 out of 5 of his songs. He started with Napal Baji and you can feel the excitement that ran through the crowd. Gentleman was performed next and my seatmate kept dancing around while watching. It became a bit silent during PSY’s performance of Father. How there were translations on screen was something I was thankful for. We could not only feel the emotions through the music and his voice, but also understand it. I think I cried during parts of it.

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The energy went back when Daddy came up and soon enough, we were dancing to it (as much as we can, we were on the seated area, although my seatmate didn’t seem to mind). Gangnam Style, unfortunately, was the last song from him for the night and it couldn’t get any sadder. My day of relaxation was ending. However, I still did enjoy and was amazed that after 5 years, I was still able to watch him perform the song.

PSY was amazing. It felt like, while he was performing, he made the divided fandoms into one. Everyone was having fun and it was nice to see that.

Seolhyun and Minho came out again, introducing Terry Jim and Jimmy Lewis, who in turn introduced a new song. Everyone of the idols, excluding B.A.P and BTOB who had schedules the following day, came out, singing the song. While I cannot understand the rest of my notes (which I also should take note of), Minho did something that made me laugh. Other than that, I feel like I cried over the concert finally ending.

I went out as my seatmate had to get home soon, although I didn’t want to leave yet and asked for a couple more photos (traditional lol). I unfortunately lost my ticket to the event afterwards and it was such a drag. I still feel bad now, 5 months later.

Anyhow, the event was superb! The lineup was amazing although most were boy groups (I badly want girl groups 😦 ), I did enjoy it. Especially with BTOB and B.A.P together, it was one heck of a night. I hoped to see them again, and lo and behold, Super Pop Con happened (which I went to and will be blogging about in tomorrow, I promise.) Everything was unexpected and was amazing to have been able to experience. I became a fan of B1A4 after the night and truly regret that I didn’t look them up before (thankfully, their songs were awesome enough that I listened to them before and are familiar with them).

The translations during the special stages and performance introductions were very helpful. Definitely a nice gesture for the foreign fans!

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As you can see, I was not able to take any photo of BTOB nor B.A.P due to the fact that I was trying to enjoy and feel the performanes as much as I can. I am not a big fan of taking photos during concerts as well as it ruins the essence of concerts itself. I personally think we should enjoy ourselves during the concert not after taking photos and videos of them and watching it at home instead.

An awesome event. Next time, another solo concert. For now, let’s stick to where BTOB and B.A.P are at.

A Peaceful Day

The last afternoon of July, 2017, had been peaceful for me.

I woke up around 6AM today. Slept again a few minutes after. Woke up at 7, then at again 8. I remember reading fanfiction until 9AM.

I did the usual, spent about an hour and a half in the bathroom thinking about life then eating downstairs afterwards. I figured it was going to be a nice day when we had chicken nuggets.

Both of my siblings left for school while I didn’t have classes for the day. I started to set the table and went online. No one to talk to with my mom downstairs and my dad upstairs, it was nice.

I can’t remember most of what I’ve done and searched for while on the laptop but it was nice.

I, by the way, bid for two Zelo cards. I am doomed. I still have to buy an awful lot of items.

Past 3PM (or was it 4?), my dad woke up and went to the room where I was. He was hungry and I suggested he cook the bacon. He asked to buy some eggs, too. We spent a few minutes, together with my mom, eating eggs and bacon — in the afternoon. And, as Filipinos, we ate it with rice.

My dad might or might not have slept again and I continued to watch Korean videos. JJ Project has released their comeback song! I watched Laboum, APRIL, and WJSN. I love those three. Talented young kids, I wish for their great future.

At night, I cooked rice and my mom cooked paksiw. My dad ate while I continued to watch videos. My sister arrived, then my brother. It became a bit noisier and it was sad that my peaceful day has come to an end. My sister and I watched Cinderella before eating dinner.

Now, as I am writing this post, I am watching B.A.P videos. It’s been a bit hard to listen to other groups after the Super Pop Concert (will be blogging about it soon!), it’s been about 3 or 4 weeks and I only ever play B.A.P until today. I love them.

I am about to go to sleep with an assignment not yet finished.

Overall, it was nice having some time alone, enjoying the things I enjoy. I did not have to talk to anyone. I didn’t have to speak. I just let my mind flow. I let myself enjoy the silence. Then let myself enjoy the music I played a couple of hours after I started. I don’t expect anything from myself and there is not anyone around who expects me to do something. I was just myself, the best kind of feeling.

Out of Mind

I am going to be honest, I forgot I had a blog.

Hello! I cannot believe it has been over a month since I last posted.

School started last month but I am already exhausted.

For the past 39 days, I have done over 10 activities, took a few quizzes, performed lab activities, went to a concert alone, met a few people, talked to a twitter following who doesn’t follow back, almost failed an exam and took another exam, got embarrassed, spent a lot, started playing Final Fantasy IX, is currently stressed, and been sleeping a lot.

I still need to study for the Civil Service Examinations on August 6th.

Today, the classes were suspended due to the thunderstorm and I am thankful to have had a day of rest. Tomorrow, I will be updating on the two concerts I have been to this year and finish two other drafts that have been there since last month. Classes were suspended for tomorrow as well, so I have time.

I feel sleepy. I hope everyone has a great time. Please take care!