Another Birthday

I started the day by watching the final episode of Produce 101 Season 2 and boy, was it a wrong move. I became stressed and more tired watching it. I really wish Samuel and Jonghyun will debut in Wanna One. The show ended at 2AM and I slept afterwards. I think I cried for a bit.

June 17, my day of all the days in the year. The day I am most excited for and give myself everything I want — my birthday.

I woke up around 6 in the morning and went back to sleep. I woke up half past eight and immediately went to the bathroom to take a bath — I had classes. I got downstairs to see my mom cooking Carbonara. I was running late, but I still ate. Nobody says no to pasta.

I left the house rather late and arrived in my class 20 minutes late. The professor seemed nice (although I can feel the guy will be strict once the lessons start) and motivated us.

We were dismissed at 12:30PM and my classmates greeted me. I bought them fries to somehow celebrate, although I really don’t do that on my birthday. I don’t have big celebrations and try to make the day as simple and normal as possible, although I always have a party by myself running through my mind the whole day. What irritated me after class was that a classmate kept on asking me to treat them to lunch. I was fuming.

After lunch, we went to the room for our next class and waited for a few minutes before the professor arrived. A little orientation and we were sent home. Sadly, my classmates wanted to stay for a while. I did get to take photos of the sky and plants, though, so I wasn’t too bored waiting for them.

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I got up and headed home at 3:30. I went around the mall near my house for a while for the air condition. It’s badly hot in my place. I went to the kiosk with the used books and found this book at the top of everything else. I felt like I was meant to see and buy it, and eventually read it.
I decided to go home. While on my way, I saw this newly opened bakeshop a friend told me about and went inside. I looked for a cake and they offered a discounted cake. I was looking at a chocolate cake but decided to take the cake they were offering, thinking I can buy the chocolate one some other time. It was called Strawberry Surprise and my family loves it!

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I arrived home and found only my brother and his classmates were in. I brought home quail eggs and ate it with them. I tried to sleep but couldn’t. My dad arrived an hour later and I was too upset to talk to him. I didn’t speak to anyone and didn’t get out of my room that evening.

I opened my cake a few minutes before midnight and lit and blew the candles by myself. It was nice, quiet and alone. It had a calming feeling. I spent the rest of the night playing the Kardashian game.

Oh, and I turned 21 that day. It wasn’t the best day and I was the reason why but being able to spend the day technically by myself, calmed me down. I enjoyed it. I’m also getting older. It seems unreal. I want to be able to have better and more productive days ahead.

I hope everyone is enjoying themselves and is having a nice day~

Where’s the Title?

Wow, I am too tired to actually make a long post these days.

School started last Monday and I feel like I’m going to break these days.

We had a quiz in Advanced Engineering Mathematics and I hope I did well.

I turned 20 last Friday, as well. My sister and her friend gave me a giraffe stuffed toy. They also bought me a cake. Jinky, a friend, gave me sweets. I was greeted by a few people. I got to talk to a few people I haven’t talked to in a while. It was fun. I’ll make sure to love every moment, to enjoy the longer life I was given.

Today was the third session for the Korean language class I enrolled to. We have eight more sessions.

I had fun today and I still have cake!

I will really post about everything tomorrow ><

Take care everyone~~

Another Year

It’s really funny how right now, I am slightly tearing up because I won’t be a teenager after I hit 20. There’s no going back.

My life as a 19 year old, I have no regrets. I loved how it was. I will love how it was. My last time as a teenager, I will always be thankful. I got to experience a few firsts. I finally got to appreciate company. I cried, I laughed, I had problems. Still, everything seems nice to me now. It was fun.

I want to thank everyone who has helped me with my journey. I have always said that 2015 was my worst year so far. I’m thankful that these people never gave up on me.

I want to thank the people who read my blogs, although they are most of the time personal and somehow uninteresting. Thank you for following me and reading my posts, it all means so much for me!

I want to thank God who never stops believing in me and stays by my side always; who always guides me in my way. He never disappoints.

I want to tell myself that I appreciate, well, me, for everything that I’ve done for myself. I have always lacked confidence and courage to face a lot of things, but still, I am here, writing. Thank you for never giving up, Bessie.

I’ll always be thankful for all the experiences I have had this past year. And I will try to stay positive for the next stages in my life. I will do my best for a great future. I will work. I will travel. I will write. I will do my best.

Happy birthday to me!! ❤

a/n I was crying half of the time I was writing this. I don’t plan on editing this in the future. I want to treasure everything.

a/n 6 minutes till my birthday 🙂

An Open Letter to Kels

I’ve been wanting to publish one for a long time so here it is. lol

Dear Kels,

You are most likely tired of me saying my thanks, as I have been doing so, almost non-stop, since last year. But again, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Thank you for your time and your words, for never giving up on me.

I’m getting better nowadays. I am able to say what I want to say, though I still feel anxious at certain times but I’m getting better. It wouldn’t be this way if it wasn’t for you.  But sadly, ever since that incident with a certain group’s fans, I have been a bit ruder as well o.O I’ll try to control though. lol

Sorry I haven’t been able to talk that much these past weeks, I’ve been busy watching all these shows on TV. I haven’t been able to tweet lately either. lol But talk to me if you ever want to, I’m always online ❤

Happy Happy Birthday Kels! I love you very much. Take care always. The best of luck to everything you want to do. I hope you enjoyed your day and I wish I was there to eat cake [if there wasn’t, I won’t go. lol just kidding]

Wish I could give you a birthday hug but maybe next time. Let’s make sure we meet each other in the future and hang out in Rio de Janeiro and make lots of memories! That would be very fun ❤

Love,

Bessie

Today’s election day for the National government and it’s my first time to vote lol My president didn’t win. What a bummer. But Happy Birthday!!!!